This is the last of this blog. Will delete when I can figure out how.

Well, I couldn't figure out how - not that I've been trying for 6 months - not that dumb. So I guess I may write from time to time but as I now have no followers it might be a good thing. I can write whatever I want.

Sam has lost his wallet.

Holly has to take an extra class to graduate...more $$$$$$

I am going to sew today.

That's it.

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Today could be interesting - still coming down off a blood pressure med I tried for the last week. Feeling somewhat spacey and the jumpy kind of feelings I used to get when tapering off an anti depressant. I wonder if they affect the brain in similar ways. Hmmmm Slept 10 hours last night which should help. Still feeling down and not really present yet. "Patience my dear." Next time someone mentions trying a new med I will firmly and maybe even impolitely decline. I just lost 10 days of my life to exhaustion and depression again. Let's all hope and pray it was the med and not me slipping and sliding away all by myself. Sing Noel is being resurrected once again. See what happens to that and I hope it's not embarassing. Much as I love to sing and perform I don't like to feel like a fool. I guess I can see that I'm not very positive this morning - shit!

Meanderings

Well, something is up because I just washed the kitchen floor - and we all know how often that happens. Sometimes I wish I could just get out of myself and see what's happening with more clarity. I am missing things that I think I should be on top of. That there are people I should be helping and I don't even see them or what they need. Being all wound up inside my own head is such a dead end.

So - who are you? The one on top peering down or the one in the sand?

Going for my daily constitutional in a few minutes and then on into the rest of the day.