Well, it's three in the morning and Ed stepped in the cat's water dish and woke me up so here I am. It's a little chilly however, so this might be short. It's hugely howling windy outside and snowing to boot. We have about an inch on the ground - I'm surprised there's any at all with this wind. Should just be blown to China!
Ramblings: I am impulsive, I like to be right, I like to be in charge of stuff, I get an idea and I just like to run with it - so sometimes I'm not a good team player. I like to have things done before they are due and have plenty of time to work on them whether it's art or music or ESL lessons or what. I don't like being a last minuter. I scored a 43 on Dr Phil's internet test. I love children and usually relate better to them than to adults. I also love helping others especially in secret. I like my job at church. hate making small talk and am not good at it but I can smile and be friendly. I am 59 years old. My husband and I are living together as friends which seems to be okay for now. I absolutely love brainstorming about creative projects. I don't trust my memory so being a Eucharistic minister sounds scary but I might go for it anyway. Certain people are quite irritating to me at the moment and shall remain anonymous. Adult men who regress to the age of 5 being at the top of the list. And passive-aggressives , but can do this behavior too,
I feel like stretching my wings. I also think I would enjoy having a job outside my home. Unit coordinator in a clinic or hospital. Piano teaching might be good (except I worry that I'm not very good because I'm not an accomplished performing pianist. But I am good at teaching others - I'm just not a performer. I wonder if that's okay? (but no health insurance there) Quandary time. I say let's put this worry capsule on the back burner until after Christmas.
Christmas is different. My little kids are all grown up and living their own lives. I still grieve this loss but maybe am ready to accept things as they are and move forward in a new way. Decorating just isn't the same. I want things to have meaning - not just clutter or old memories; doing things the same way over and over as when the kids were little; something new maybe out of the old. Just a few favorites. We'll see. I'm not stressed out yet! Getting a little cranky though. I want to find a way to wrap stuff that works because I absolutely hate wrapping presents! My mom does such a beautiful job and everything is coordinated and all...I just didn't inherit that talent/patience. Maybe festive brown paper bags? Maybe unfestive bags. pieces of cloth and string... totally not wrapped - just pulled out of a box at the last minute? The wind seems to have died down a bit now - maybe I can go back to sleep. Thank God for little helping pills, too. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr my feet be's cold. Later................................................................
Ramblings: I am impulsive, I like to be right, I like to be in charge of stuff, I get an idea and I just like to run with it - so sometimes I'm not a good team player. I like to have things done before they are due and have plenty of time to work on them whether it's art or music or ESL lessons or what. I don't like being a last minuter. I scored a 43 on Dr Phil's internet test. I love children and usually relate better to them than to adults. I also love helping others especially in secret. I like my job at church. hate making small talk and am not good at it but I can smile and be friendly. I am 59 years old. My husband and I are living together as friends which seems to be okay for now. I absolutely love brainstorming about creative projects. I don't trust my memory so being a Eucharistic minister sounds scary but I might go for it anyway. Certain people are quite irritating to me at the moment and shall remain anonymous. Adult men who regress to the age of 5 being at the top of the list. And passive-aggressives , but can do this behavior too,
I feel like stretching my wings. I also think I would enjoy having a job outside my home. Unit coordinator in a clinic or hospital. Piano teaching might be good (except I worry that I'm not very good because I'm not an accomplished performing pianist. But I am good at teaching others - I'm just not a performer. I wonder if that's okay? (but no health insurance there) Quandary time. I say let's put this worry capsule on the back burner until after Christmas.
Christmas is different. My little kids are all grown up and living their own lives. I still grieve this loss but maybe am ready to accept things as they are and move forward in a new way. Decorating just isn't the same. I want things to have meaning - not just clutter or old memories; doing things the same way over and over as when the kids were little; something new maybe out of the old. Just a few favorites. We'll see. I'm not stressed out yet! Getting a little cranky though. I want to find a way to wrap stuff that works because I absolutely hate wrapping presents! My mom does such a beautiful job and everything is coordinated and all...I just didn't inherit that talent/patience. Maybe festive brown paper bags? Maybe unfestive bags. pieces of cloth and string... totally not wrapped - just pulled out of a box at the last minute? The wind seems to have died down a bit now - maybe I can go back to sleep. Thank God for little helping pills, too. Brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr my feet be's cold. Later................................................................