This is Daisy! Wouldn't you like to feel like that? I know I would.

This is the last of this blog. Will delete when I can figure out how.

Well, I couldn't figure out how - not that I've been trying for 6 months - not that dumb. So I guess I may write from time to time but as I now have no followers it might be a good thing. I can write whatever I want.

Sam has lost his wallet.

Holly has to take an extra class to graduate...more $$$$$$

I am going to sew today.

That's it.

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Today could be interesting - still coming down off a blood pressure med I tried for the last week. Feeling somewhat spacey and the jumpy kind of feelings I used to get when tapering off an anti depressant. I wonder if they affect the brain in similar ways. Hmmmm Slept 10 hours last night which should help. Still feeling down and not really present yet. "Patience my dear." Next time someone mentions trying a new med I will firmly and maybe even impolitely decline. I just lost 10 days of my life to exhaustion and depression again. Let's all hope and pray it was the med and not me slipping and sliding away all by myself. Sing Noel is being resurrected once again. See what happens to that and I hope it's not embarassing. Much as I love to sing and perform I don't like to feel like a fool. I guess I can see that I'm not very positive this morning - shit!

Meanderings

Well, something is up because I just washed the kitchen floor - and we all know how often that happens. Sometimes I wish I could just get out of myself and see what's happening with more clarity. I am missing things that I think I should be on top of. That there are people I should be helping and I don't even see them or what they need. Being all wound up inside my own head is such a dead end.

So - who are you? The one on top peering down or the one in the sand?

Going for my daily constitutional in a few minutes and then on into the rest of the day.

Tonnettes and Onions

Here are some tough ladies workin' it out in rehearsal. We had so much fun I think it was a sin.
Bel Cantos not Quitting that should be the headline - there's a big job out there to be done to give kids a chance at what we had with music. It's just not available any more in the public schools in Seattle. For Shame!!! We're meeting in December to crank up the machine so watch out everyone. Change is coming.

On a domestic note, this morning I have peeled, chopped,frozen and dried a huge basketful of onions from the garden.Must have been 500 pounds at least. What a lot of fumes - house still reeks. I turned an industrial fan on myself and just blew everything to Kingdom Come in the kitchen but the job is done! (Cough, cough) Didn't even shed a tear.

Piano lessons this afternoon and then on into the weekend with a visit to Holly in the morning and then sewing with Robin and Marilyn in the afternoon/evening. We were supposed to be at the cabin this weekend but not going to happen, bummer.

Fumes.............................

Me Life

Happy piano student eating donut.

Last night is the first night in a week that I have slept more than 5 hours. 9 pm - 6am feels really good! Maybe the creative juices will flow today.

Ed's low on work and so here we go into the winter months. Painters can have it rough when the weather changes. Maybe we should move to Palm Springs? I thought it was hard this past 9 months but what do I know. I did balance my checkbook today and I have $100.00! Good thing that I have lots of practice making something out of nothing. God continues to provide even when I am scared shitless.

I'm getting excited about ArtBurn in February. I can't wait. I wonder what I want to do there? I also want to make some art pieces for everyone who is going or trades or something. Hmmmmmm. This could be really fun. I have the thought that I want to make a demented toy out of the kid mannequin that I have. Must go to Value Village with that in mind to get additional pieces to cannibalize.

Meeting a couple of friends for dinner to plan this weekends outing to the cabin. We will have fun and craftiness too.

Got to deal with a cranky car today - someone dumped a whole buttload of crickets under the hood!

Calling my my shrink too. I'm doing well but have a thorny issue to deal with that I need some help on. I've done all that I know how to do but it keeps coming up and needs more resolution so I can relax. Old fear that needs to be put to rest. Interested? No, I am not going to talk about it here - some things are private - at least until they are not. I am still growing and learning about my mind. Thank God for no more anti-depressants!!!!! I would rather have electroshock, so if I ever go crazy just lock me up a give me the juice.
On into the day - feeding feral cats and then to hit the phones and get my business done. I love you all.

Here are the 2009 ladies out in front of my house! These gals are really tough this year and they glow in the dark; they don't mess around. The one on the far right needs a mask but Nick is wearing it for Halloween so she'll have to wait. She's got a toupe' so who cares? (Maybe it's a muff.)

Had a great piano class today for my students too. told ghost stories and I composed music to go with each character. The kids played the themes whenever their character appeared in the story. Then they ate donuts on strings - lots of laughs!